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Yes, why, Leif you idiot? Another voice piped up in his head when he looked at her after being pushed on his back and she asked him why they needed to stop. He had a perfect good answer ready, but when she started to move to pull her shirt up, it made the words vanish from his mind. He hadn’t seen her like this before, not without a bra and it stoked the fire currently burning inside of him.

His gaze dropped to her breasts, his mind instantly conjuring up visions of him taking each bud into his mouth and licking and sucking on them until she would turn into jelly under his ministrations.

Leif swallowed, his throat suddenly going dry.

These thoughts, ones he never had, not like these and not about her, but now seemed to flood his mind like it was the most normal thing.

Her plea shooting through his resolve of stopping this before it would be too late, he found his hands on her hips, her own helping them move up until they were drifting upwards on their own and he grazed a thumb over one of those hardened nipples. So soft, so exquisite, and she made him think about doing sinful things to her.

She wanted to feel something good, and who was he to deny her such a thing?

He always caved when she asked him, simply, because when it came to Josephine Barnes, he had no way of denying her anything. So, when she shifted, making sure that his shaft was now pressing against her heat, he let out a groan. She was playing with fire.

And she knew exactly how to play with that fire when she told him that she needed him.

“Joy…” Her name came out on a rasp, her gaze fierce and demanding. But there was something else there as well, something he couldn’t deny. He gently pushed her down on her back, his lips back on hers and claiming her mouth in a kiss that was full of heat. It was like she had pulled the plug on all these hidden feelings, and they were trying to find their way out.

His hand roamed down her side, finding the edge of her pyjama bottoms, his fingers hooking around it and pulling them down until she was left in just her panties. He knew he couldn’t sleep with her, not right now, not when she was so vulnerable, but he was more than willing to make her feel good.

Leif let his fingers dip inside her panties, pushing until he found her sensitive knob and caught her gasp in his mouth before starting a slow rhythm with his fingers. Rubbing, circling and dipping lower pushing one of his fingers slightly in to feel her heat, to feel her so wet that it made him groan again. He moved back to her clit, and continued the attention there.

He just knew that she would be his undoing.
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Joy shivered - half in delight, half in tension - when her name fell from Leif’s lips in a rasp. Something about it was highly sensual. A cord snapping. A line that was being crossed. Then his lips found hers. The kids he met her with obliterated any clear thought. Joy heard herself moan as she surrendered so happily.

Her pyjama bottoms went and then his fingers explored a spot they had never touched before. Joy gasped as the sensation soared through her like a bolt of lightning. He drank it in, capturing the sound with his mouth as his kiss was unyielding. Joy held fast, her arms around his neck as she held onto him. It was amazing to have him bring her this kind of pleasure. For the first time, it was not her mind dreaming it up.

It was real. This was actually him.

She blinked, her eyes seeking his in the darkness. And she held his gaze. Joy pushed one leg to the side, granting him better access when he found her entrance - one of his digits pushing into her. His moan now met hers.

Her hips slightly circled, adjusting his pressure to find near perfect levels. Eventually, Joy broke the kiss, her head falling backwards as she let a louder moan break from her lips. The arousal was winding tightly in her stomach, like a knot that would eventually burst. A half-lidded gaze found his eyes.

“Don’t stop”, she whispered breathlessly. “It feels so good …” She wanted more. All of it. Every step of the way.
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Leif was trying to wrap his mind around all the emotions currently flowing through his body. All the things she was making him feel, and he had no idea that he had been hiding them all this time. Her scent wrapped itself around him, her body so responsive to his touch as she pushed her leg further out to give him better access.

He knew he should stop, but as she circled her hips, adjusting the way he put pressure on her core… Leif knew he was lost.

She fitted against him so perfectly, all this time she had been right under his nose, and he had never seen it.

Never even thought about doing all of this with her. But when she broke the kiss, the moan that filled his bedroom when here head fell backwards, it cast her in a different light. It made him see her for the woman she had grown into. Her cheeks were flushed, her lips were parted and bruised by his kiss, and the half-lidded gaze that found him made her look downright gorgeous.

It stirred something else awake inside of him, something he would have assessed had she not asked for him to not stop with a breathless whisper. It stopped his thought process, lowering his head he brushed his lips against hers, claiming her mouth this time in an unrushed kiss.

His fingers skilfully did their job, sliding through her folds, applying pressure at the right places and then Leif broke the kiss. His lips trailed down her chin, her neck, towards her breast until he found one of her nipples. He sucked the little knob into his mouth, letting his tongue swirl around it for a short moment before he moved further down her body.

Hooking his fingers around her panties, he pulled them down her legs, getting rid of them until she was lying bare in front of him. He nuzzled the inside of her thigh, taking in her scent there and he closed his eyes as he did so.

“I really should stop…” He breathed out, but knew that he wouldn’t. Pushing her legs further apart, he moved his attention to her centre. His tongue darted out, tasting her, licking her and circling her clit. He used his index finger to push into her entrance, picking up a steady pace as he let his mouth and tongue do the rest.

He would go to hell for this, he was certain of it. But of one thing he was certain, this craving he was feeling for her, it wouldn’t go away. She had truly broken the dam.
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His fingers did amazing things and she wondered whether this had ever felt this good. Most of her dates had been hurried, had fumbled. A bit of rubbing here, a finger pushed into her hurriedly - as if that would do anything for her. None of that had anything to do with this - quite literally this existed in a different universe. She was coiled with anticipation, her senses heightened as she wanted to feel all of this. Not miss a single moment.

Joy’s cheeks were flushed. In her mind, it was hard to align a woman giving herself over to a man - any man - like she was doing now with the self-sufficient and confident young fighter she was. Certain things had not been erased from the mind of society even in her future. And yet it felt so incredible. Fingertips, warm and gentle, dipped into her own honey, were stroking the little knob at her very core expertly. There was no nervous and half-hearted rubbing back and forth. Leif knew what he was doing.

In the dark, that deepened Joy’s flush. He was experienced. He had been with a number of women before him. He had ten years on her. Probably more given that she doubted he had waited until twenty to have sex.

For a split second, Joy feared that he would have realised just that as he broke the kiss right there and then. Realise that she barely had any experience that could compare to his. That maybe she was a child still, compared to him. That maybe with everything that had happened, was happening, he needed to do what her parents expected him to (or not to) instead of what she needed from him.

“Don’t stop”, she repeated, and this time her voice was a plea more than anything. Joy arched her back, a moan slipping past parted lips as his mouth explored her face, her neck, finally found the pert little pebble that was a hardened nipple. The tip of his tongue darted against it, then it softened as he let it swirl. Joy’s hands fell to his shoulders - wide, strong shoulders she had cried against so often. Now she was steadying herself when the heat between her legs grew and her need for Leif expanded into the smallest crooks and corners of her body.

She lifted her head, watched as he stripped her underwear and thus last piece of clothing off of her. A shiver raced through her, and had there been light, he would have seen her flush extending down to her breasts. Did he like what he was seeing? Was she like the women he took out on dates? Could she ever be more to him than a little sister of sorts?

Joy pulled one knee up a little, turning it inward ever so slightly. That motion to somewhat block access to one’s most private parts. But Leif would have none of it. Pushing her thigh outwards gently and thus exposing her once more, Joy accepted the renewed shiver bringing her goosebumps all over. “Oh god …” she whispered as she let her head fall back. “Leif,... yes …”, she breathed into the darkness.

When he spoke those four words, her eyes flew open, and Joy gazed down to where he lay perched between her thighs. She held her breath. He would not really stop, would he? She pushed her elbows out underneath her, to prop herself up for the moment and look at this man. Joy was not even aware that right in this moment, she was holding her breath. Then he pushed her legs further apart, and Joy was sure her heart was skipping a beat or two.

The reaction her body gave was almost violent as his tongue found her most tender skin. A jolt tore through her - what he was doing felt absolutely incredible. Of course, Leif did not know that no one had ever taken their tongue there before. Boys her age were too fixated on their own dicks. Pleasuring a girl was like means to an end. Done until she would spread her damned legs. Just that Joy had never done that.

Not until now. Secretly, she craved to know what it felt like when he entered her. Would the first time hurt for her? And what about after that? Joy craved to have sex normalised so to speak. All that fussing around it was beginning to tire her. At Leif’s age, one basically started with sex instead of half a dozen dates. And in a weird way it made sense to her - figure out if two people were physically compatible before investing the time to get to know each other.

Just that Joy didn’t have to get to know Leif. She knew him. Everything about him. Knew his gentle side - and the one passionate and explosive; the one he had inherited from his father. She loved both equally. Two sides to the same story. Leif was kind, compassionate, even if at times withdrawn and incredibly stubborn. But even then he would let her in because she knew that sometimes joining him in his silent reprieve was all he needed - rather than a girl trying to make him talk.

Then her mind was drawn back to the there and then as arousal grew to new levels. And where moans had usually been a way to express appreciation, they were fast becoming the only way to vent what she was feeling - what he was making her feel. Joy’s breathing hitched, and she arched her entire body as he felt his finger push into her - coupled with the sensation of his tongue relentless stroking and caressing her, each breath was coming a sweet moan growing in volume.

And he didn’t stop. Joy pushed her elbows to either side, letting herself fall back onto the bed. Her fingers reached down and she found the thick mop of hair belonging to the man between her legs. She murmured small words of encouragement as she kept her hips tilted so his tongue and lips could do their magnificent work.

Eventually - Joy had lost any sense for time - she knew she was reaching that peak. Just like that, it all became too much. Overload. She held her breath, froze - and that alone was signal for Leif to slightly speed up his ministrations. He kept doing exactly what he had done the moment when her motions had seized - he knew she was reaching her climax.

“Oh …”, a sigh broke out of her as that wave rolled over her and took her along. Then small convulsions rolled through her body and loud moans broke out of her. She felt boneless, unable to move with conscious will rather than being at mercy to what her own body did in response to the exquisite caress.

The sensation rolled through her, overwhelming her.
I love you, she thought, with a hundred thousand echoes of her own voice in her mind - but she couldn’t make the words come across her lips. Instead, she said something else.

“Please, do it ..." She wanted to sleep with him. "Let me feel you…”
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Part of Leif knew that he was walking a dangerous path, the one they were currently on changed everything. The long years of friendship altered forever, just with the start of a kiss and him now doing this to her. But the sounds she was making, those sweat moans uttered from her lips, it fuelled a raging fire now burning inside of him.

Joy had always been there for him, for better and worse. The fact that it had taken this bold move on her end to make him see something he hadn’t realised before, it made him see their relationship in a different light.

His chest tightened thinking about her, it trying to tell him something that he had been too dense to figure out before.

Not before she had opened up that particular door. Before this, he hadn’t even thought of looking differently at her. To see her like the gorgeous woman she was, so responsive to his touches. How her hips slightly moved, just to give him better access, to drive him insane with arousal himself. Because this was affecting him as much as it was her.

If you had asked him days ago if he and Joy had a sexual thing going, he would have scoffed at them for being so ridiculous. But now, with her moaning loudly into the silence of his room, he found it not so ridiculous. It made him wonder why not sooner.

Her fingers speared through his hair, he heard her soft murmurs and it encouraged his movements to go faster, to make his finger curl just so inside of her to apply pressure to the soft tissue there. Of one thing Leif was certain, he could feast on her body forever. He wanted too, needed too, and it was scaring the fuck out of him that this feeling hit him so hard.

He was so in tune with her body, heard her holding her breath, the small seizing up of her body, and Leif just slightly speeded up his actions. Just to make her tip over.

And when she did, it was magnificent to behold. It was then that he noticed how tight she actually was when her sheath clamped down around his finger in sync with the convulsions of her body. He had almost forgotten that she was still a virgin. He slowed down his movements, slowly pulling his finger out of her.

He peppered her with soft kisses, trailing to her inner thigh when she asked him to do it. She wanted to feel him, and he wanted nothing more than to comply in that moment, but…

“We can’t, Joy.” He hoarsely told her, clearly affected by what he had been doing to her. “We really have to stop.” He pressed another kiss against her inner thigh before, and with very difficulty he sat up and looked at her. God, she looked gorgeous in the aftermath of her orgasm, one he had given her.

He felt himself strain against his pyjama bottoms, but he couldn’t have sex with her. Not now, not when she was so emotionally distraught about her parents and just looking to get it all fixed. He wouldn’t take her virginity like that. He was not like that.

But, God, did he want to. She really had opened up the flood gates.
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The warm glow she felt inside of her was so pleasant. It spread a sense of relaxation, made her unwind. Joy basked. It had been beautiful. Was this what sex was supposed to be? Rather than helpless fumbling with a hand down someone’s underwear – it could be this? She breathed out with a shudder, embracing the feelings she had for the man still perched between her legs.

But what followed was like a cold hand reaching for her warm skin. Joy shivered when her brain translated the words she did not want to hear.

We can’t, Joy.

His voice sounded choked, and she briefly wondered whether Leif was disgusted. Joy swallowed, wiping such infantile ideas from her mind. He was a grown man. If anything, he wanted more. That was what men were like, right? When offered the chance to get into a woman’s pants, none of them would say no.

Leif sat, looking at her in the semi-darkness. Despite the lack of light, she could see his face, his eyes. Gorgeous, handsome man, she thought. She was completely taken by the lines drawing his face. The way the dark growth would frame his face. Joy adored his beard, would hereafter never deny the added benefits a man with a beard like his brought.

She swallowed. Why was he saying no?

Joy was willing to bet that it had been her best sexual experience yet. Did he not feel that way? Did it not at least range somewhere in the ‘good’ variety? She gulped, unwilling to believe that. “Why not”, she breathed, unable not to ask. And yet, the idea that maybe he was not sharing her feelings was suddenly registering. And it scared her.

Slowly, Joy sat, her body still naked, her legs left and right of him. She pressed her lips into a thin line – two hearts beating in her chest. That of the warrior willing to fight for what she wanted. And that of a young woman, believing herself on the verge of rejection. She was out of her depths, clearly. Joy had no idea what to do with the moment.

So she did the first thing that came to mind. She shifted forward, and pushed her fingers past the seams of his pyjama bottoms to find his rigid length. She gasped as slender fingers wrapped around it. He was fully erected. Hard. More than anything, he was ready for her. Why was he saying no?

It felt like, she now had to make sure it happened or … well, or what? But Joy had the suspicion that she would probably run from this room in tears.

“You don’t want me?” she asked, lips slightly parted as she sat with her legs spread, her chest exposed and his length in hand. He just couldn’t reject her like this, could he?
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“Joy…” He breathed out when she asked why they couldn’t. Yes, why not? His body was warring with his mind, and when she sat up to face him it was making it that much harder. He didn’t like the way she was looking at him right now, like he had denied her the one thing she needed in this moment. The one thing he couldn’t give her, not like this.

He wouldn’t take advantage of her like this. Not when she was emotionally vulnerable.

But it seemed that she had other ideas about that when she shifted forward and her hand disappeared in his pants and wrapped slender fingers around his shaft.

He gasped, her touch fueling his arousal and almost shattering his resolve. He grabbed her by her wrist, making sure she couldn’t move her hand and make him do something he would regret in the morning. But just feeling her hand around him, it woke more up, and he was certain he wouldn’t be able to ever put it back to sleep.

Looking at her in this moment, beautiful Joy, still somewhat flushed by what he had done to her. By what he had made her feel, and he was ruining it all by denying her more.

Her question tore through him, and he had to close his eyes to do the one thing he wouldn’t be able to do if he kept looking at her. I want you too much. The words ran through his mind, but instead of saying them, he gently unwrapped her fingers from him with a shuddering breath.

“It’s not that.” He said to her, pulling her hand from his pants and knowing that this moment would get back to haunt him. Especially when he opened up his eyes and could see what his rejection did.

“We just can’t. Not now, okay?” His words were spoken softly, and there was a plea for her to understand this. To realise that what they were doing right now shouldn’t be done out of drowning out emotions, that it should be done because they were both clear minded.

She was emotionally compromised, and her parents would have his head if they found out that he had taken advantage of her while being in this state.

“Steve…” He started but wasn’t sure what to say, how to finish saying that he would do anything for her but knew that that would sound hypocritical when he wouldn’t give her the one thing she wanted in this moment. So he shut his mouth, and just looked at her.
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[In-Character] [Post #18]
And there it was. Rejection.

It was a cold hand around her heart, squeezing it painfully. Leif’s hand was wrapped around her wrist, and he slowly but surely pried her away from this most intimate touch. Joy found herself breathing in deeply. The air came back out with a shudder and she felt tears in her eyes all over again.

She twisted her hand out of Leif’s grasp, pressed it to her chest with the other. Then she withdrew her legs, pushing her knees together firmly as she fished for her shirt.

“Don’t call me that”, she snapped at him when Leif used the petname he had for her. Joy quickly pulled on the top to cover herself, then clasped a hand over her mouth. She suddenly felt sick to her stomach. Somehow, Joy was sure she was in freefall. No holds barred. She would hit the ground and she would shatter into a million pieces any moment.

Falling. And no Leif to catch her.

“I should go”, she said, her tone a little too cold, a little too harsh. And yet, it sounded choked. Like she was unable to breathe through the tears that threatened to keep coming.

Joy found her panties and drew them on with shaking fingers. Her face was hot – the flush had deepened, now one out of shame rather than arousal. She was glad that it was dark. Her pyjama bottoms were somewhere beneath Leif. Joy would just leave them. “I’m sorry”, she pushed out, as she slipped off of his bed and rushed to the door.

Tears kept pushing, and Joy kept her hand firmly pressed to her lips as the sobs threatened to come. She was through the door in no time, throwing it shut behind her. And then she almost head-on barrelled into a broad chest.

“Hey … careful”, a familiar voice said.
Joy looked up. Benji.

“Joy?” he asked, but she only shook her head, before she tore past him and towards the door of her own room.
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Benji watched the younger man dribble around with the ball for a moment, shooting at the hoop and scoring. Leif picked up the ball, bounced it around a few times and threw it again. Once more, it went through the net. Benji walked further into the gym, observing the other man go through the motions, but he could tell that something was on his mind.

And he didn't even have to use his telepathy to figure that one out.

He had made his way to the kitchen, almost ran into Leif who had been backing out of the room rather quickly, and very quietly. When Benji stepped into said room he understood why. Joy had been there, with Xander, and the latter was flirting his little heart out. Joy gladly accepting, and flirting back.

Which really hadn't made sense to Benji, mostly because he had seen the way she had been eyeing Leif ever since they had gotten here, and then there were the surface thoughts about that man he had picked up from her. It's not that he had been prying, but she had been very vocal in her mind about how she felt about him. So, this whole scene he was currently witnessing…

He had watched Joy and Xander for a moment, grabbed a bottle of water and went in search of Leif, who had made his way towards the gym and was now shooting hoops to blow of steam.

Benji pulled his shirt off, going bare chested, to follow Leif's example and cleared his throat to get his attention.

"What?" Leif said, throwing the ball and scoring once more.
"One on one?" He asked, reaching for the ball when it bounced his way. He twirled it in his hands, looking at Leif who eyed him suspiciously.
"Sure." The other man finally answered, catching the ball when Benji threw it.
They got into their positions, Leif bouncing the ball and trying to get past Benji, who easily took the ball away from him and dribbled towards the basket, leaped and dunked the ball.

Grabbing the ball, he passed it again to Leif. They took their positions, and once again Benji managed to steal the ball away and went through the motions of scoring.

"Are you even trying?" He asked as he passed the ball back to Leif.

Leif just glared at him, bounced the ball, feigned going to the right and then passed Benji on his left and managed to dunk the ball this time. Now it was Benji's turn starting with the ball. They went at it for an hour, going back and forth in turns to start with the ball.

They had worked up quite the sweat, and Benji called for a break. Water bottles had mysteriously appeared on one of the benches, he was leaning towards Caitlin for their magical appearance, and he created a mini portal to grab them and handed one over to Leif who just shook his head.

"What?" He uncapped the bottle and took a long swig from it.
"Nothing." Leif answered and drank from his own water.

Benji looked at the younger man for a moment, taking another drink from his bottle, when Leif caught his gaze and lifted a brow in question.

"You're doing it again." Leif said.
"Doing what?"
"Looking at me funny."
"I am?"
"Stop it. Or tell me. But don't do the all omnipotent thing with me."
"Omnipotent..." Benji snorted at that. "Fine, fine." He relented when Leif gave him a look. "I'm surprised you're in here and not trying to stop mini-Summers to steal your girl away."
"She's not my girl." Leif growled, tossing the half empty bottle of water towards Benji.
"You could have fooled me."
"Well, you don't know what you're talking about."

"You do know she's just doing this to get your attention, right?" Benji finished his water, watching Leif take up the ball and going solo at the basket.
"I have no idea what you're talking about."
"You're either really dense about what that girl feels for you, or..."

Leif stopped and turned, looking at Benji with a scowl on his face. "Or, what?"

Benji looked at him, assessing and then shaking his head.

"No, really, tell me, because clearly I have no clue whatsoever." Leif dropped the ball, crossing his arms in front of his chest and staring at Benji.
"Shit, dude, you really don't know." He sighed, tossed the bottle of water back at Leif, who caught it out of reflex. "How long have you known her?"
"All her life." He answered.

Which explained why the guy wouldn't have noticed the subtle changes in her behaviour. And now it was up to Benji to explain it to him. Which was hilarious if you knew how idiotic he was with feelings and girls. He sighed once and made himself ready for 'the talk'.

"She loves you man. It's plain and simple. And she's very loud about it too in her mind. Not even sure she realises this, but all the telepaths in this building know how she feels about you." Benji told him, and Leif looked away.
"Why are you telling me this anyway?"
"Because, clearly, something happened." He said, picking up on some major guilt. The kid was good with hiding his thoughts, but not good enough when he was high on emotions. "What did you do?"

That made Leif look back at him. "Nothing. Not what she wanted anyway."
"I see." Benji lifted his hand to his chin and rubbed his fingers over his beard.
"No, you don't. Because I wanted to."
"But you didn't."
"Hell, no. Not like that, not when she was so upset." Leif growled in response. "But stuff did happen, and then this morning…"
"Ah, you found her flirting with Xander."
"Why would she do that if she's in love with me?" He sounded so young right now, like he was trying to understand girls for the first time. He should have known by now that that was a lost cause for their kind.
"Did you actually try talking to her?" Benji gave himself a silent shoulder pat for giving this piece of advice. He was sure Caitlin didn't mind him borrowing it this time around. Leif looked at him with a frown.
"And tell her what exactly?"
"How you feel about all of this."

"Dude, I didn't even know I had feelings about this before last night." He groaned. "It's weird, because normally she would have already been up in my face and call me an idiot."
"Well, you are an idiot for getting to this party so late." Benji admitted and Leif scowled.
"Gee, thanks man."

"Well it's true. I'm sure she has been in love with you for a while now, and you never noticed."
"I don't even know how to approach this without breaking what we have."
"Apparently you two already went down that road last night..." Benji snorted which resulted in a glare from Leif. "Hey, man, just telling you as I see it. Women like to talk about this stuff, so my advice to you is to go talk to that girl and tell her that you're an idiot yourself."

Benji made his way to the bench and grabbed his shirt, slinging it over his shoulder as he made his way out of the room. "I mean it, dude. Go talk to her before she ends up doing something she regrets just to drive a point home." He saluted Leif, and left the gym.
"Hey!" Leif called out, and Benji popped his head back around the corner. "Where is she?"
"Infirmary. Looking in on her dad."
"How is he?"
"Fine for now." Benji looked at Leif for a moment longer and then shook his head. "Talk to her."

"I will." Leif said, reaching for his own shirt. "After I had a shower."
"Good." And with that Benji left, this time he didn't linger. He went in search of Kira, who he hadn't seen since they had brought in an unconscious Bucky. A soft nudge down their line, told him that she had made her way to the kitchen. A smile curled on his lips and he headed that way when her voice chimed in his mind.

Go take a shower. I'll join you. Grinning, he made his way to their room instead.
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Soon after. Theatre basement. [In-Character] [Post #20]
“I need your help”, Joy announced as she barged into the otherwise unoccupied computer lab. Its lone occupant was one Jenna Coleman. Her father’s best friend. Her second godmother.
“Excuse me?” Jenna looked up, staring at Joy in surprise.
“Jenna! You need to help me…” Joy threw up her arms, feeling helpless as she dropped into a pacing motion so unlike the usually quiet, rather reserved girl.
She was much too busy with her own problems to even realise that the other woman not only didn’t know what was going on but did not know her to start with. In Joy’s mind there was just one prominent problem: Leif Thorson. And Jenna Richards knew as much about it as Eva Coleman.

Joy dropped into one of the chairs across from Jenna, staring at the woman, and willing her to just drop into problem solving mode. Because that was what her godmother did. Jenna solved problems. Usually with brute-force method, but she solved them. But instead, Jenna just stared at Joy - and it took a moment for reality to register.

Jenna didn’t know her. She probably had no idea who Joy was.

This instantly tied a knot in Joy’s stomach, springing loose a sense of despair that blindsided her. Joy covered her face with her hands, and sucked air into her lungs. “You don’t know me. Shit. This is twenty years in the past and you’re not the Jenna that talked about the birds and the bees to me when my mother insisted I was too young then. Ha …”, it bubbled up like a snide, bitter little remark. “Funny that I stay a virgin till twenty - only to then make a huge mess of things. Seducing my best friend, and then storming out when he didn’t want to go all the way … and then I kiss another guy and he sees it - and now he’s not talking to me. And I don’t know why … because I wanted to sleep with him? Because I’m still just a kid in his eyes? I don’t get it .. and I’m going crazy, cuz I’ve no idea where to go when he’s not talking to me. He’s the only one who knows me...”

Joy’s voice pitched, broke, and before she knew it - Jenna was in front of her, hands gripping Joy’s upper arms and gently shaking her out of her stupor.

“Breathe”, Jenna said, her voice the same soothing cadence the other woman always used with her.
“Jen”, Joy choked out.
“It’s okay … Just breathe.”

“He’s the only one I have … everything else is … broken.” Joy choked out and her eyes filled with tears.
“Your father will be fine”, Jenna murmured. “And your mother is the strongest person I know.”
Tears slipped down Joy’s cheeks. “This world frightens me.” She whispered. “I wanted to fix things, but all I got was a strange new world that I don’t know.”

Jenna stood, fetching a tissue box from one of the window-less sills, and handing her two of the paper tissues. Joy blew her nose, wiped those cheeks.

“Fix things?” Jenna asked. She had heard a few things, but never from the girl herself.
“In my world”, Joy began and her tone dropped lower, her eyes became somewhat darker. A shadow passed over her clear and gorgeous features. “Steven Lang had my mother for over two weeks.”
“Shit”, Jenna responded.
Joy felt relief. So this version of Jenna was not too different. There was still an unspoken, automatic understanding between her and the other woman in certain matters. That footage of her mother in Lang’s captivity had existed, Joy didn’t know.

“He tried to end the pregnancy. Put me in glass tubes.”
Pain flashed across Jenna’s face. “I’m glad he never managed. Not in your world, not in this one.”
Joy just nodded.

“You fixed that”, Jenna offered.
“But did I? She’s locked herself into her room … and he’s been strapped to a gurney and old cold longer than awake ever since we freed them.”
“He’ll be fine. He’s stubborn. The silent, intensive-stare kind of fellow … but stubborn.”
Joy laughed at this through her tears.
“That something I say in your world, too?” Jenna asked.
Joy nodded.

“You’re not alone”, Jenna said. “I can still be your godmother … or just your friend.”
The other woman searched Joy’s eyes, and Joy, in turn, allowed that scrutiny to calm her down. Eventually, the younger woman just nodded.

“So, what happened…you and Leif?”
Joy nodded, then pressed her lips into a thin line. Eventually, she launched into story-telling mode, laying out the details for the other woman.
In the end, Jenna sat there, on a chair she had eventually pulled up next to Joy, both eyebrows drawn up. “Damn”, was all she had for the moment.
“I messed up.”
“But … why?”
Joy shrugged.
“Why would you kiss that guy?”

Joy flushed, and buried her face in her hands again. “I don’t know … I was panicking!”
“Why panic?”
“Leif didn’t want me”, Joy pushed out, not unlike a stubborn child.
Jenna blinked, pulled her eyebrows up again and just stared at the younger woman for a moment. “You really believe that? And here I thought Leif was the dense one out of the two of you?”
“Excuse me?!”
“Sweetheart, have you seen yourself in a fuckin’ mirror?”

Joy didn’t follow and Jenna rolled her eyes. “Have you ever actually told that man what you’re feeling for him?”
Now it was Joy’s turn to blink. “Is it that obvious?”
“Obvious? Honey, it’s on the friggin’ evening news. You’re like …” she made a wild circular gesture with both hands over her head, “broadcasting.”
“Right …”, Joy said, suddenly looking a little pale. “A whole lot of telepaths.”
“Broadcasting”, Jenna repeated.

Joy looked uncomfortable.
“Have you told him?”
The younger woman just shook her head.
“Sweetheart … I’m not actually sure why you’re coming to me for advice … love and I don’t do so well together. But … if you wanna be treated like an adult, you gotta be an adult. And this means, talk to him. Tell him how you feel. Tell him that you want your first time with him. Tell him that you were being an idiot kissing that other guy.”
“What if he doesn’t talk with me?! Leif Odinson is the picture they put below ‘brooding’ in the dictionary.”
“Why is he not talking to you if it doesn’t bother him that you kissed someone else?”

Joy stopped at that, then tipped her head sideways. She had not considered it that way.

Jenna wasn’t done yet. “And maybe that he didn’t go all the way has to do with the fact that you were emotional, lost, worrying about your parents. Your first time shouldn’t be a by-product of strong, negative emotions. It should happen when you can fully be in the moment, when you are with someone you care about … and someone who cares about you.”

Joy eyed Jenna, scrutinised her even. The words sounded plausible, but it was strange hearing it from someone like Jenna who knew cynicism like the back of her hand.

Jenna had told her things about herself, that this version was certainly not privy to.

Joy eventually let her head hang, then she began to nod. “So I should talk to him.
“Yes, talk to him.”
“And tell him what? That I kissed another guy out of spite ‘cuz Leif didn’t wanna sleep with me?”
“How about you start with your feelings for him instead?”

Nodding, Joy stood. She brushed her hair off of her shoulders and onto her back, wiping the area below her eyes with the backs of her hands. Taking a deep breath, she eventually nodded. To be treated like an adult, behave like one. Check.

Then she turned her head and looked down to where the other woman still sat. “Are you going to go talk to him, too?”
“What?” Jenna asked, perplexed.
“You’re fighting, right?”
Jenna didn’t understand, wondering whether Joy was talking about her and her brother. But the Coleman siblings avoiding one another was fast becoming the new status quo. “Who? Nathan? No … I’ve no idea what Na-”
“No, Jen… you and Benji.”
“I beg your pardon?”

Joy flushed as Jenna stared at her with disbelief. Joy squinted as she counted back the years, then she waved Jenna off. “Oh right, you’re not married yet. Are you guys dating already? You told me you got hitched just like a few months after meeting.”

“What are you talking about?” Jenna asked, and something in the other woman’s face drew Joy back down onto her seat. There was not just disbelief but a sense of pain, a sense of betrayal.

“Wait …”, Joy said, as the realisation hit her. “You’re not together?”
“No …” Jenna breathed.
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